For do you not know a wise man will listen where a man of knowledge refuse to stay quiet?

For fools never shut up and talk of ill intent. For have you not sat to hear and feel other’s words and see the emptiness in them and feel it to where it almost sadden you? For it is known a man of knowledge without wisdom is just a fool with bigger words to impress others. He is no smarter then the one they call a fool. For as I see you work with many fools, for none of them accept the truth, but follow a fool. For when one lives in their own world of false beliefs they are no more than a fool but yet try to impress others with the little bit of false knowledge they know. For that is why a wise man sits and listen, for a wise man knows that if he is not sure of things he questions. For where the fool will spout off with endless words. For what you knew yesterday shall be nothing today but yet when tomorrow comes today will be nothing at all. For as we grow, yesterday is in the past as so is the knowledge that we knew with it. For within tomorrow you shall outgrow the knowledge of yesterdays. For when we think we know, we find out we know very little. For as time goes on so does knowledge. A fool will think he knows it all, never realizing the world changes as well as learning. So we all need to learn daily, for knowledge is like bread, it needs to be freshly made daily just like love. For the old bread gets stale and outdated. For a man of knowledge today can be nothing but a fool tomorrow. But a man who brags about what he knows will end up as a lonely fool. That is knowledge without wisdom But yet whom is to blame? Is it the one who finally ignored him or him himself?

For no man wants to lead as a fool, for the man of knowledge who brags soon becomes the fool. So do you gain wisdom with your knowledge or do you gain knowledge? But for many they feel the knowledge gives the wisdom without applying their knowledge to gain the wisdom. But then again does a man need book knowledge to gain wisdom? For what have you gain by this? For is there not more than one lesson in this? For if you not know today remember, today’s knowledge is old tomorrow. For not one answer is found in a day? For is it knowledge you want to gain or is it wisdom? What would a wise man do to get knowledge? So but to gain the wisdom that goes forth with the knowledge, should he think and take his time to analyze it? For what was asked today the answer may come in the next moon. For this lesson today ask yourself the questions from what I spoke for knowledge and wisdom is hidden within. For man takes what is said as said but a wise man of old always asked himself questions of the words. For what is an answer, for one may not be the answer for another. My child, leave no stone un-turned, for there could be questions within a question as well as an answer within an answer. For does one use just himself or do they go to others for help to receive their quest? So as with knowledge and wisdom it is the same. For you may read words, but do the those words mean the same to you and the one who wrote them? For a wise man will look at all sides of the means. For he asks questions with himself and analyzes the sentence word by word, and he looks at all the meanings and thoughts before deciding to use the one that is more logical. For yes, I know you feel that I am hard but life and reality is hard as well. For you must have total understanding of thoughts and analyzing of feelings and energies and to understand the spiritual realm more clear. For does not Lucas stop to analyze things when it comes to the spiritual realm? Does he not read people and tells them of things for it is not of ease you must stop to analyze the energy and and the feelings behind it.

For many hid in guilt or shame and cover it with false emotions. For I know this lesson is hard but yet it is for I have given it to you. Do not worry my child it seems confusing but yet the answer lies just ahead of you for not all answers is of the physical realm. So search all of those of old to think when someone talks about you and it is the truth so you remember it word for word. For if someone is lying about you, remember word for word for what they said is gossip. The truth of things is barely spoken but the lies spread quickly and everyone seems to remember it word for word plus their own insight on it. For yes I know for this to be. Food for thought, be more hungry for wisdom than knowledge, remember knowledge comes from wisdom.

So my child, here is your second lesson of the day. Is love an emotion? For If I ask you to analyze it could you? For there is many degrees of love, for this you must learn to understand and be able to accept mortal man for who they are, for this is love. For this you will understand the gods with more understanding of the love they show mankind. For man fails at this. He has little compassion for man, they fail yet they themselves are the reasons for their failures and how others treated them. Yet they were not always as they are now for many hide their emotions. For some give most of their lives helping others and when they needed help they was left alone, sick an unfed for man made man as they are. For I know and I have been treated as they have but I am a spiritual creator and they are mortals. So is your mind full of these lessons? For you must analyze them and write them down and add them to your works as lessons for others and as you do reach for those who walk this path. Reach for those who do it alone for they know no other mortal to turn to for advice. For many times, they speak to me, feeling lost and lonely and they have many fears that need to be faced. For I feel your love as do others. For I am being lost to lies so I must help those who look to me for guidance and love, you must now work and think. For a thinker is one who seeks wisdom, a reader is one seeking knowledge.

Lovers and Fools

Smile my child, for if a man studies all his life but acts as a fool, what has he gained? For he has nothing and his studies made him empty for many walk in the path of the unknown for they see nothing but the words they read. For at one time my child you was the fool until you open yourself to the spirits and opened your soul. For all men are fools as a child, but it those who decide to open their minds, hearts and souls to see the true words of love. For you are one, but remember many meanings change over time, for what was yesterday may not be the same as tomorrow. Have you not seen this? For as the world many things change with it, but as you grow spiritually many old things will have a new meaning. A wise man can become a fool when he thinks he knows more than the world. For many have proclaimed to be expert when they know little, for their knowledge came only from books written by others. For then, why are they experts? Is a man spiritual and proclaim to be an expert if he never felt the spirit outside his own body? How can ye be of spirit when thy grasp on man made things when items of man is cherished more than the love of a god? For yes many humans do claim they are spiritual because of the items they bought yet their soul is still empty. For the world is full of crystals, then why is not everyone safe? Why is there so much negativity? For is the stone weak or is the soul weak? For many claim they have grown but yet they think like a child. A rich man who has many things but yet claim he is poor, but proudly shows his things, so is he poor of riches or is he poor in the soul? For I do not see what man has in his home of wealth but I see his wealth in his soul. For a man can sleep in the night air and have not a penny, but yet have wealth in his soul, but yet a man that has great wealth is poor in his soul, for some sleep with ease, but should feel of guilt,where a poor man sleep restless wonder if he did harm someone. For usually the poor man is of innocence where the rich man is guilty of many. For you if remember what thy have been taught you should never feel guilty. For you have opened you heart and thy soul, you took in knowledge where others turn their backs from it. You opened your eyes and thy ears and saw with your heart. For was it not you who read my words but did not know what they said years ago? But now the same words have meaning for remember thy was an infant but yet thought you knew. For as time continued, you seen you knew little of what you read but the words were empty of the true meaning. For what you know today can make you an infant tomorrow, for if we do not grow then you have learned nothing for knowledge and wisdom never stop coming or growing. For at times the most knowledge and wisdom comes from things we dislike the most. For if knowledge and wisdom came easy wouldn’t everyone be as such.

For those who blame everyone else for their own mistakes has no one to blame but themselves. So they should not complain to others of their faults for it was not you who led them to do things they did, this is where stupidity comes into play. For they may be knowledgeable, but yet lack wisdom, a wise man would of walked away where the fool thinks he will win. For him being used , it was no you nor I who have done it. For we have spoke of the truth of what would be the outcome but he had all the answers but yet he has nothing to show for it. For is this a man of wisdom or a fool? For you was no more than a slave to their wishes. For they did not want you to be free, they wanted to be your masters for they felt you belonged to them. For he had a chance to help loved ones in need but did not, then cry out that he gets no respect. For if he does not help your brother nor acts like a father than why does he want to be respected as one? For how can a man have it any other way when he is as blind as a man with no eyes? For they live by the world and not being part of the world. They claim to be religious but yet they are not spiritual, for they were programmed to see only what was expected for them to see. For they fear not to ask questions outside of their thinking. For my child you have surpassed their thinking and spiritual growth to where they would not understand nor could they grasp. For their knowledge comes from one where yours come from many. For my child one time you was of the same cloth as them, but we saw more from your lives before and you was one with us in past lives so you shall always be and you shall be for many more to come. But they are no more than a slave with the mindset of a slave and shall never be nothing more for they lack the spiritual to learn the truth of truths. For if you live by the world you are no more than a slave. For a lazy man will follow and be no more than a sheep to where a man of great energy will be the leader. For a fool follows without question where a wise man always questions the leader. For the fools go to slaughter and the wise man is the butcher, for then what is your oppressors, the butcher of the fool? Yes my child, for a wise man see many things wrong and speaks softly of them where a fool see nothing wrong but shout out about things he does not know. For they think as fools with no spiritual growth. For they feel giving gifts of material will lure you back to them, they think as slave masters to where gifts and coin is the weapon of the weak to lure the weak of mind into the trap. For I know you have seen what I say for your thoughts are of mine and mine are of yours. For is not of the past that the master offered their slaves greatness if thy return for they were weak and return to the same life they tried to escape from, for they fell pray to the coin and gifts. For this I have no love for the coin for I see the future of what can be and the meaning of niceness with it. My child do not be the fish going for the lure, for if you do, you become no more than a meal. For has not you heart told you, for has not your soul spoken to you, for did you not listen? Your soul told on what their true intentions and of their thoughts, for remember sugar can be of sweet but yet of poison. For yes child, for you are in the shadow of who you truly are, but yet let them believe a lie. For they cannot blame your love no more than they have already. For he thinks as all do with out knowledge for have you learned that my brother teachings do not not teach to allow to decide for themselves but programs and forces all to think his way. For this today is for you to learn, for I for saw many difficulties you was questioning, For now you see for it tis you who chooses your path and not those who claim to love you to lure you in their trap of the world.

For many have fallen

For do they not know that we, the serpent Gods and our belief was the first and other beliefs followed and all roots of paganism is from us, the serpent Gods. Before we taught man our ways they wandered as simple minded beings. They followed nothing and knew nothing for they had no understanding of life and death until the serpents appeared and spoke to them. For it was not only the serpent of the so called Adam and Eve,we the serpents combed all the world to show humans of its greatness and to enlighten them of the truth. Man then spoke of what was told, but understood little then spoke to those with less than a worm’s brain. For only if you understand the serpent can you truly know the truth. For man in the beginning had less than an animal’s mindset, for they only knew how to reproduce and find food. They had no logical thinking or understanding, for if we talk to a infant does he know what you said? For in the beginning all men were infants. Then as man started to learn, they wrote down what they could understand but yet changed the truth. Then they spoke the written word to those weak of mind to follow them. For you know many knew not how to write a language and many could not understand the written word for themselves. So man himself spoke to tell them how he thought it was to be, but never understanding all that he was taught. For many followed blindly like a Christian, but never understood the truth. For they followed the written word because it was the new thing to do yet many who followed did not believe. For those are the ones who followed blindly.

For my child, many had no thoughts of what to fear or what fear was. They believed if you couldn’t see it then it couldn’t harm you. For centuries, many did follow nothing but what they knew and that was to find food and shelter. It twas like my belief, there is one way, but many have their own way and many have no roots or understanding of it but yet they teach. You yourself saw there was many ways to follow me, but my child there is only one which no one really knows. For I am still teaching those who search for the truth. For you my child are still a student, as well as all my children, for even those who knows much still must learn more. For you was chosen many years ago, for you have a connection to the ancients. For have you not understood that you have lived many lives before? For now you live today, doesn’t that mean that you lived many moons before? For have you not understood death and rebirth? For you was never left alone, you have been guided each time you took your first breath. For this life is no different than the ones before. For have you believed that this is the first time you walked this world? For you was chosen before you were ever here. For you had been here before when dragons and wizards have walked. For this is of a time long past that you walked, your ancient soul shows you things of times gone by before you took a breath again. Smile my child, for knowledge is the freedom of the mind and joy to the soul. For Fools have started a belief and bigger fools followed them.
My child, never lower yourself to fit into other people’s simple minded ideas. When you become part of the establishment you become apart of the world of chaos and corruption where men hide from wisdom. They were taught to be apart of a low grade society. For society is the downfall of man, many have already fallen and many will fall as they hide from the truth as they have done so for thousands of years. We cannot let those who refuse to see the truth bring us down for if they do we will be in their trap of destruction. They are the weak for they hide from the truth. Remember the blood of the weak, you are seeing it first hand for you have reached a spiritual height beyond men. You understand more of the spiritual growth while they choose to stay weak. They stay at the physical mindset, never understanding or accepting the spiritual. They see only with greed in their hearts, for to them, the coin is their God. You see beyond the physical plane and see the world as it truly is and what man has made it. You refuse to accept what they have done and have gone beyond the point of most men. You are at a higher level of spirituality and self awareness. For when your eyes have been opened to the world and its beauty and what man has done you see it and what we see. For we see the destruction man has caused and the selfishness man done in the name of the coin god.

Do not feel sad, rejoice for you have grown. For their weakness shall feed the strong and the truth. For you came from a seed to bloom into a beautiful flower. When your eyes were opened it was like the rain. For when you open your heart it was like the sun. For when you open yourself the roots took hold and your leaves reached out to a higher place. For that is how you grew, for like all plants it takes the right love and care as it was with you. So my child, do you understand? For now is not time to feel sadness, it is time to feel joy. For you are the plant, they who hide are no more than the depleted soil to where nothing will grow. For they see the sun, they see the moon but know not what it means. For to them a tree is a tree, for they do not understand it is a living being. For we who know the truth have always been outcasts, for why do you think I am such? It has been for eons that man will follow a lie before the truth. For if you are open you will see the truth. It happens everyday from where you work to the government and even those who are to teaching the people of the Gods. Yes my child man has become blind to the truth. For the truth is unacceptable for the truth gives no power to the coin. For the Gods has been replaced with the coin. For man worship the coin more than they do any God, even those who claim to follow my brother.

My brother has deceived them and blinded them with lies which they feel is the truth. For he made the coin a way of life for man. He does not care for man for to him, they are no more than a play thing. For if he loved them, why did he kill so many? That is not a god of love but a god of control. For I allow man to do as he wishes by his free will, for I understand that man nor god are perfect. For in early times my brother was the God of storms and of destruction. He was jealous of my world and I could not stop him for he was my brother. For he deceived the humans not I. For he told them lies while I spoke the truth. He planted the seed of deceit in their minds that he was the true god, for it was not him but it is I who was and still am the true God of this world. Yaush spoke of the spirit but few listened or understood him and those who did were considered outcasts from the lies of my brother. For Yaush’s followers were of the coin, not of spirit. For as I have spoken, man hears the truth but rewrites it to his own way because he looks for the glory the lie bestows on him.

For as I have stated a fool can start a belief, but weak minded and bigger fools follow it. For have I not stated that man has found it easier to follow lies than the truth? For many do not understand that to follow your soul you feed your soul and know the truth. But man understand not, they follow the coin and the fools that speak lies. For man has buried himself within the world, they do not see the light for the light is beyond their comprehension. The light brings not forth the coin. The light shows you the true path of survival. For when man only knew how to gather food and shelter did he not care of the coin? But when my brother came forth and show them new ways and how to become greedy, many gods were replaced with the coin. For there is many destructive Gods among us, for it is not only my brother but other gods who followed him who have lied to man about the truth and those who did, brought forth the coin.

For many gods were forgotten for they were replaced with the coin. For I have been been put in the category as a money maker by many who have no clue and use me for their own aspect to gain money. For I am not happy on how people think that I, god of this world must obey them and that I am to be used for an excuse of the coin. For this is of the Abramanic beliefs which I am not of and they drag me into their ill faith as the evil one. For they use me to cover their one-sided ways to manipulate others. For they are the liars not me nor not of me. For I have spoken the truth, for they want to destroy me as the one of lies. Yet without me they would have no ground for others to believe them. For in first  days they proclaim that I was bad, not evil and as time grew so did their lies. For the people have been lied to for who is of good and whose is of  evil. For my brother proclaims to be me, for when he  kills many he say  it is I,  not him. For many only see with their eyes not with the soul or heart, for it only takes one lie and the followers will follow that lie because their leader  says it is true. For answer this question, if  that was asked and you answer in a circle they know not any difference. So if  one asked, you answer with a lie will they not follow? For may will answer from a book with many lies and say that is your answer to the question.  For have they not lied to you twice?

The Blood of the Weak
I shall enlighten you of the truth. Man is the child of the Mother.
From her, the child received his flesh,
He is newborn born of the womb of his mother
the holy of holies
I shall enlighten you, you are one with the Mother
For she is within you and you are within her
Of her, you were born
Of her, you live
And of her, you return again
for your breath is her breath
her blood, your blood
your bone and hers
Your flesh and her flesh
I shall enlighten you truly.
Your Father is love,
Your Mother is love
You are love
It is by love that we became one and birthed you
For you were born of the spirit of your Father
and your body from the body of your Mother
Perfect is your spirit
For it is as perfect as mine
Perfect is your body
For it is as perfect as hers
So love your Father for I love you wholly
So love you Mother for she loves you wholly.
Even now it is believed that your being is from the flesh of stars
Reincarnated essence rebirthed from the cosmic womb
the cosmic source
The womb of all
Come back my children
Return to your innocence
Return to what your ancestors have known
Return to what your ancestors forgotten
Where all life was seen as sacred, where all were valued
Where all knew that all where all apart of one another
the blade of grass, the beast, the sun, the moon
Where all called one another, brother and sister
All lived for another and never for the benefit for themselves
Where all lived in harmony and where all had consciousness
Where all had lived and had their own soul and their own song
For man was born with the same spirit and flesh of all on this world
For Man was made in the image of the Gods
For Man was made in the image of all that surrounds him
Man has the spirit of stone in him
Man has the spirit of plant in him
Man has the spirit of beast in him
Man has the spirit of galactic beings in him
Man has the spirit of us in him
Come back my children
Return to your innocence
Return to what your ancestors have known
Return to what your ancestors forgotten
Remember your power
Remember your connection
Return to the Spirit and return to the Earth
Face your fears, face your spiritual deaths
Face your immortality. Become whole again
Come back to our world
Come back to your world
Where nature and spirit had spoken
And where man had communed and listened
The ancients lived in harmony with their brother and sisters
The ancients lived in harmony with their Gods
The ancients knew that to dominate would bring misfortune to all
The Ancients knew that living for themselves would throw all into chaos
For had man never received their scriptures
they would know all that needed to be known
For if man remembered their brother and sisters
they would have known suffering
Had man never turned their backs on us
man would have never known pain and suffering
For the ancients grew evil in their hearts
The ancients turned their backs against their traditions
For Man throw all into chaos
When they cursed and cast aside their mother
and all that follow her
Without her and her goddesses there is no life
For the Great Mother proclaim all women her Goddesses
For all women bleed to give life as do the Great Mother gives life to the Universe
The Great Mother and her Goddess are One.
The very reason to why there is much pain and destruction
Even now to this day.
For we must remember without blood there is no life,
For the blood is our life and with blood there is no rebirth
For if blood is flowing then birth will come forth
For if woman does not bleed than she shall not give birth
But if the blood flow then there is birth
For the Blood is the Water
Water is the Blood
For It is the very life of this Universe
These are the words of the ancients for it was known
For woman is a goddess in her birth rite
Without woman there is no Universe
For Woman is the barer of blood
And with blood we have life
With blood we have death
With blood we have rebirth
For the blood that flows brings death and brings life
For life and death is a balance in its own
If the balance is uneven the Universe is thrown into chaos
For if there is chaos, there is destruction
For when chaos reign
There is only death
For when destruction dominate
There no rebirth
When man remembers not his traditions
There is no balance
Without balance, all things come apart
Without balance the very Universe comes apart
Without balance, all become undone
For I shall enlighten you of today
For today’s world is not balanced
For that is why there is much destruction
For man thrown the Universe in chaos
When man-made his scrolls
When man declared themselves Gods
When man declared themselves above all nature
When man lived only for themselves
When man made religion
When man cast Us and their Mother aside
And when man raped her world and killed its beauty
When man kill and destroy his brothers and sister with no remorse
For man has taken balance away from nature
And the Great Mother is punishing man
for The Great Mother is the mother of all
She is the Mother and Queen of all Gods, Beasts, Plant, Stone and Man
For I do not forget my Mother of all
For she giveth and now she taketh away
For man raped her world and sown chaos and destruction
For man done this for eons without remorse of the Great Mother
Man has destroyed their brother and sisters without remorse
Man has destroyed their traditions without remorse
Man has destroyed their goddesses without remorse
For I, the Great Father am a drop of her blood
For your world is from the flow of her blood
For this I enlighten you
The blood that flows is rebirth
The Blood that flows gives life
The Blood is the only source of life
For without blood there is no rebirth
For blood gives us life
For blood gives us strength
For without it there is no creation
For those who remember
For those who know the truth their blood will run pure
For man who do not remember will lose sight of the Universe
For man who are lost in man’s creation will fall and their blood will be spilled
For man has been lost eon ago
When the ancients remembered not their brother and sisters
When man remembered not their Spirit and nature
Man became lost of the world of the beginning
When they hid from the Gods
And when they put themselves first and made themselves Gods
When they replaced their Gods with their Scrolls
For as they have done this, We took away the knowledge
They resist the blood and shall cling to dust
For those who worship themselves will become enslaved by themselves
For their very denial of the spirit is an act of transgression
Their dominance of Nature is a death sentence
For they are nothing but broken shells with no spirit within
For they shall never reborn in the magical Mother’s Womb
For man has forgotten that the very air is precious
For all things share the spiritual breath
All of the Mother’s Creations share the breath
This the ancients knew
For this the Ancients forgotten
The earth belongs not to man
For man belongs to the earth
And man and his brother and sisters belong to Us
For all are connected through the spirit of The Father
For all are connected through the Blood of the Mother
For the transgressions of man-made man weak
When man destroy the earth,
When man destroy the water
When man are left to fend for themselves
When man deprive themselves of their traditions
We see the only reason for them to feed the strong
The weak have no reason to live
For I shall enlighten you
The blood is the source of life
And without the Blood of the Mother
Without the Blood of the Goddesses
There is only death
There is no rebirth
For as you see their blood drip away from their veins
It shall be a glorious day
for the weak make us strong
For their blood feed us and we shall rise
For the blood of the weak is your victory
For time will our savior
For time works with us
Fall not in the trap of religion
For religion is a creation of man
Religion comes not from the Gods nor of the Mother
For within religion there is no room for revelation
For within religion you are shackled
For within religion you are a slave
Zombified and decay
Cut off from the love and gnosis of the Gods
Cut off from Nature, your brother, and sister
Cut off from even thyself
Never to be reborn in the magical womb of the Mother
Come back my children
Return to your innocence
Return to your innocence
Return to what your ancestors have known
Return to what your ancestors forgotten
Remember your power
Remember your connection
Return to the Spirit and return to the Earth
Face your fears, face your spiritual deaths
Face your immortality. Become whole again
Come back to our world
Come back to your world
For time is nature
and Nature works as it wants
For time and Nature work with us
For the ancients remembered your Mother
For the ancients turned their backs on your mother
And threw her away, your gods and your traditions
For the universe became unbalanced
When man hid from their Great Goddess
The Great Mother wept and shuddered the world
For then the rains fell and drowned the world
From her tears the water rose
From her tears the weak drowned and was lost
For the blood of all was lost
For the blood of man was lost
And I, the Great Father,
Her firstborn son wiped her tears
Her tears stopped and the Mother smiled again
For then the sun shined through
And her creations bloomed in beauty
And from her waters became the blood of the earth
And from her blood nature was reborn.
For from that time forward all of man was born with nature in their blood
For the blood of man is the blood of nature
For the blood of nature is the blood of the Mother
And the Great Mother bestowed nature in all of woman
For woman is proclaimed as the Goddesses of the Mother
For their blood is of Nature
For theirs of the Great Mother.

A tough love lesson

Remember my children knowledge isn’t just from a book, life is full of knowledge if you watch for it, with life knowledge there come wisdom, for both is needed to see the world of all for there will be many teachers in this world and in others, accept them all and listen to what thy say. For those who are taught only one way and refuse to search for their own truth is lost, for their mind is blind of the true world around them. For there is many mysteries of the world that many are blind to. For I will say only few hear me, but many follow blindly. For few could hear but yet they are not of open mind and heart. For they claim to have knowledge because they have read, but yet refuse to listen when the are spoken to. For my children they are of the weak, they will make us a glorious day when their blood spills. We will raise to glory. For what you have learned, about the realm of the spirits, what have you seen for we can only teach those who follow if they want the truth. Remember I has set you free of the chaos of the world and have opened your eyes. But there is others who shall never remove those blinders, nor will ever know true peace. For my children, you are to learn new lessons daily, for knowledge is all around you. Look around you, study things, feel everything’s energy. For you remember all things has energy and is alive yes with a language of its own,yet it don’t not speak to the mortal, for mortal would not understand and it s unheard by man for man does not listen anything but themselves. Man used to listen and man used to know. They have heard the snow melt, they have heard the wind whisper, they used to listen not of their ear but with their heart. But man lost interest when man written his own word. Man lost interest in the creation of Mother and I. For if one closes his eyes and open his soul he shall hear their story, for when the wind moves it is talking to Mother and all of nature and you shall hear its sad story of what man has done. Have you not felt the soul of a tree?

For it may not grow any more but yet its’ soul has not left for when a man gets old does not stop growing and look weak. For mortal man and his science shall ponder on his theories for only the Gods know for man has lost  the knowledge of the real truth. For ages we have been ignored, and told we have no clue. For they and the ones who lack knowledge do not understand for they see form only one eye For when the sun sets for you it raises for me, for it is not of the same world, for that is it realms or is just time zones for the answer is hidden. For you see one cannot make light in one world for when there is light there dark, for does that mean light was created in many days or was just one for when there is light there is also dark. For that is it realms or is just time zones for the answer is hidden for you see one cannot make light in one world for when there is light there dark for does that mean light was created in many days or was just one for when there is light there is also dark For when one realm is at rest in the dark others are at play in thy light. For if realms are of different times, isn’t the world in more than one realm. For I know this is hard to understand but it it written but hidden. For was it not more than one who created this world and was it not in their own time? So it is realms of the Gods or for is it zones for what do you see and what has knowledge taught you. Do you understand with wisdom comes knowledge, but yet knowledge does not mean wisdom. For you seek great knowledge to gain wisdom but without practice, you gain no wisdom. For then you only have knowledge, what is knowledge without wisdom? Just a well knowledgeable fool for your ancestors were not book knowledge, but yet they were very wise with wisdom. You look around and take notice. For knowledge doesn’t come when you want it. It comes at all times, from when we think you need it, we restore knowledge when we feel you are too laxed and and when is needed. For lessons are not just from books and words of the physical.

For we hold the key to answers you seek. Have you heard that an uneducated man can be wise where a educated man can be a fool? For man has learned wrong, books are of others thoughts not of thy own. For as it has said, a man knew the truth until man wrote scriptures on their scrolls. You need to understand that without mistakes there is no wisdom for with wisdom, mistakes had been made for when a mistake is made you learn for what one did wrong. When one then understand and corrects the mistake it has now become wisdom. Be not saddened but happy and rejoice, for the . Knowledge and wisdom you receive is of value and many will never learn of it nor will desire nor take heed of it. For if I am not hard than you shall become weak. For many do not understand, for your life is of mortal but yet of the spirits. For if the road was easy, many without knowledge or wisdom would follow it. For it is only the strong who follows it, for they are the strong and are true to me. For it only one moment can take a true follower become a lost sheep, for you have said wizards look tired for they are on guard not just of the mortal realm but of the spiritual realm. They are ready at all times. For to be truly spiritual you must in at both and understand both for when we look at things with one eye we will only see what that sees but if looked with both eyes we see both the mortal and the spiritual . For I shall test you, when I feel the time is to do so. For we do not work by your time but ours, for when you step into the spiritual travel, your time is now ours and ours for time means nothing to us and you shall learn this. We do not watch time for time to us is endless.

A message from father Satan

Oh yes, If only we remembered everything from when we walked. When man has altered, when man has written down his own things, many things did not happen the way they say. Things were written down the way they got paid. Man would not believe the facts, their minds are closed and will believe only what they say and that is that. Only the few will search the truth. Oh I am sorry my child for I speak so long and low. And I know that you are trying to rest. Just remember what you see is what you see, its what you hear that’s from the heart. Sometimes your eyes only see what man wants you to see, but look real close to what you hear because what you see is not what you hear. Man can deceive you with your eyes but not with your ears. Do not listen to them, do not see what they want you to see. Listen to me and hear, for I will guide you through for there is chaos that lies ahead. Remember not to see with your eyes but hear with your ears. For sometimes you need to hear with your heart. If things do not feel right with what you see, close your eyes ad open your heart. Open your heart ad the truth will flow. For man calls me evil but do they know, that I give love and peace and they kill for gold. So my child, listen close, listen with your heart. Your heart tells you more than your ears. Ears are good, eyes are good but the heart if full truth. For with your heart you hear what the soul knows. For if the soul knows why is it o old? I know the words I speak you do not know. For they are from old, many have heard them, once was told. Only those with a true soul will know, man of today will not heed from the things of the past that comes from me. Oh my child, hear with your heart and feed your soul for hearing by seeing can be deceiving by man, so follow your heart and follow your faith. Oh my child, do not try not to see anything you hear, some is from me, some from others, there is others who see above, there are others who see below. But I will let you see what I want you to see, for the truth is what I believe.

People say they are free spirited but yet follow what society says, and the ones who claim they are open minded walk a narrow path. For if he is free than why does he follow man’s rules? For he has bound himself to society and is not of free movement or thought but bound by the words of man’s society. For if he was free, he would be innocent of man’s created words and he would be innocent of the world. For when one sees the truth with ears and soul and sees it with his eyes than the man is proclaimed unfit to be among his society. For as it was said, man knew the truth until he made his own words and others followed the word. For many who are imprisoned were being free, but yet claimed to be wrong by man’s law. Do man’s society imprison him for going against the word of man? For as a child we must learn, but does learning mean being controlled of your thoughts and feelings, which confines the soul? For at one time man, worked to get things he needed to live. But today that has changed, for what is worked for is not what is needed to live, but man lives for things and to get more. For did your ancestors work to gain things they did not need? But yet did they only worked for what they needed to live? Man will enslave one another to gain wealth and things that is not needed, to gain and show power. Man wastes life by doing things that is not needed. Because a mountain is there does it need to be climbed if there nothing there to help you live? For man has brainwashed himself to think that the coin is life and without any coin there is no life, but yet before man made coin they all lived. For nature blessed them and gave them the things they needed and nature asked for nothing in return but to respect her, for she did not control man. Yet man has tried to control nature. for man who works himself until he is tired is not a spiritual man of the Gods but of himself and the coin. For if man was not to have sex than why were man and woman made different, for it was to be equal,  for lack of knowledge and wisdom but proclaim to be spiritual  has no graces with me.

For life does that to them who is lonely and finds nothing but more loneliness. for they had lost their spiritual drive. For their souls is already dead before it times for as a body in the grave waiting to turn back to earth. For it no longer has any use but to decay away, for yes, the shell is empty from top to bottom. For they had never ever pushed themselves, for they have always found the easy way from things, and have used excuses for life, for they are of the weak, their lack of practice is of laziness not of space. For they had fallen into man’s society, waiting for the world to change for them but yet nothing For their pain is of their spirit dying, but yet they do nothing. For man’s medicine do not heal the spirit. For this I know, for who they claim are their guides have slowly moved away from them. For they have become within they’re physical self and use not the knowledge they once knew.

If a man has great wealth and his soul cry out of sadness, and a man has no riches and his cries out in love which man is the richest? For the man with wealth has lost his spiritual life to gain riches of man, whereas the other man lives with the spirits and happy for what he has. For man lives for riches is never happy for his soul is lost, but the man without riches rejoice for what they have which feeds his soul and for that the soul is happy. For man has forgotten their spiritual balance, for man proclaim to be wise for he had wealth, but wealth is only physical, whereas the spiritual is never ending. For he understand the power within his own soul. For is this confusing, or is thee lost? For looketh around you and see each ones’ soul and see why they are so unhappy with their lives. For many is of the physical world with no balance of the spiritual but yet they proclaim to have a spiritual guidance, but yet they lack the knowledge of the ancients. For they believe not of what they speak for their souls are unhappy for they give nothing to it. But yet man done so with emptiness and not leaning meaning. For man’s words are not of spirit but of physical, it is to please the body but of the soul. For was you not lost until you was found? For have you not grown? For have you not learned things that was never taught? For was you at one time no more than a sheep of man? For was you not taught that riches are the way of life, yet shown no spiritual guidance? For at one time was you not blind of your soul and lived a unbalanced life? Yet you had your blinders removed and thy heart was open and fed, for in this thy soul saw the light and it rejoiced. For this gave you happiness and you saw a new world that was blinded by mans word and teachings. For you saw and you ask to be balanced. For they fear for what they do not understand. For ask your self, did the Gods make coin and greed or was it man?

 And how did man control other men? For was it not by his words? For man and his coin and the written word control others. Was it not man who proclaimed that coin was a savior? For man replaced the Gods with coin. For man being weak could see the coin and got blinded of the gods, for then coin became mans’ new Gods. For many a man would follow the coin, for man knew with coin and their word they could control and be known as greatness. For have you seen a poor man be honored? But you see man with great coin be highly honored but yet did nothing. For have you not seen great praises to a rich man, who respect none, but yet see no praise for the poor man that gave what he had to help his brother? Have you not hear by others how they proclaim the rich as to gods? For where a poor man will take time and thank his god for what he has and ask for no more. But yet a rich man expect more and credit himself for what he has. For I not say all with coin is unbalanced, I have seen many who thank their God daily for what they have and thank their god allowing them to be where they are, and keep balance with physical and spirit. They happily give help to their brother for they understand by the grace of their gods they have plenty. For to appease the gods and keeping a healthy and happy soul they give to others so they may feel the same gratefulness they have. For this I say they are clean within their soul. For yes many never have enough tis their soul is unhappy and they do not understand. No god has forced man to give him coin, only man forces man to give coin, for man feels man and coin makes them powerful. For others bow to them because of their coin. For you have advanced in your life, for when you came home and was thankful for what you had. For you was being pushed to think as man and coin, but happiness never came for only those of weak mind, they will feel coin is their power. For what coin did to your ancestors, for the greed of man for the coin, what happen to them? For you ancestors became slaves for another man to gain what coin offer. Do you think of your ancestor being slaves if there was no coin? For man claims I am evil, but yet they saw not what they made.

For did I make coin? For did I make things to kill thy own brother? But did I not make the world, and create things to feed and heal? For as I say man has turn away for the good I made and proclaim they are just yet the run other men, kill other men and steal things that are meaningless. For it tis not I who use the knife to kill thy brother. For it was thy own brother who proclaim to be of the highest, but yet none would follow him. For he gain the heavens, not because of his stature, he was given it, for he was weak and greedy. for tis It not I stood against thy father for man. It is I who showed man the knowledge he seek. It tis aye. For then if this is evil than I bow in the guilt. For man has changed the word of the ancient Gods, to hide their own guilt and proclaim the words man wrote were true for man has change the word of the ancient Gods. For eons man has change the truth a little to now the ancient truth is lost. For in you studies on Ancient mystical Christianity the truth was still some what known. For Yaush spoke of spirit but his followers like other many men relaid it in their mind as physical and refused to lose the control they have for coin was to play at the time. For they died trying to control others on which God they should follow. For many claim that is is not that of the truth. For he came to enlighten their souls to try and bring back the truth that was being forgotten. For yes, they wanted riches of the world not of the soul for they claim him not of Godly but as a rebel against the truth of man. For again now, the coin is of the flesh not of the soul. For they were many before him that tried to bring forth the truth of the ancestors and of the ancients. Yet many the truth was lost.

For it is within your heart

For it has been seen and observed that many follow a religion or belief for social status and not from their faith or hearts. They believe not of it. They are more than likely to suffer from anxiety and depression not from a psychological aspect but from spiritual emptiness. The spiritual soul is not being fulfilled for they follow a belief they do not believe in or that they are forced to follow it because they were taught from upbringing. For many follow without questioning or opening themselves to see if their current belief fits them and fulfills their spiritual growth. Many follow the wrong religion or belief that does not nourish them. For following a belief that is the wrong one for them with no spiritual growth is like not having a belief at all. For having no belief and being happy is better than having a belief and being lost and many are lost who claim to be Christian claim that they are to fit in but yet have not a clue and are as empty as a newborn. For people going to the house of their worship and pay NO attention and think they are getting spiritual growth where in fact they are lying to themselves and to their gods or goddesses. To the gods it shows they are at the wrong place and their choice of religion or belief is not for them because if it truly was they would listen to the words that were being spoken. For if ye don’t follow Jesus than why do you pretend to do so. You have gain nothing, and you are living a lie for its not your order of worship. For like a zombie you are as dead the one in the grave. For they will never know what the moment of rejoicing is nor will they live the life that they were meant to. They may have a life but yet not live for they have no spiritual guidance or understanding of what life has to offer if they are dead inside.For if one is dead inside they do not live, but yet they have lived to be fulfilled by others. For to see someone glow when one tells about his/her belief with love will always be better for then you know that they are growing spiritually. Many will refuse to see what lies before them and become unblind. What belief may fit your brother may not fit you. For to find a belief that spiritually uplifts and enlightens you is like having a suit tailored just for you and the suit that is for you makes you comfortable.

Women are more than likely to follow the crowd, never saying that a belief may not be for them and that they may look elsewhere to find where they truly belong. They live their lives empty and unfulfilled, never realizing that this world is full of many beliefs and choices but yet they choose only a few. And many have forgotten the many gods, goddesses, ancestors and spirits that would reach out to fill their emptiness. For woman forget there is many goddesses out there to fulfill the emptiness of spiritual growth. They forget to remember they have the right to fulfill their own spiritual growth and enlightenment. For no one needs to be in a sheep pack to be loved, for sheep get slaughted without ever seeing the full light. For many breathe for a religion for their bodies and not for their souls. For their are misled and cause harm and blame others the name of their belief. If the soul or inner self is fulfilled then there is inner growth, but if there is no love or growth on the belief or the religion they they react with hate and chaos. But for those who wander and look to the horizon they shall become stronger. For I have seen many things and the many lost souls that I have seen has saddens me for they seen only what man allows them to see and they refuse to see anymore.

For the Abrahamic following does not fit all, it is for the lazy who want to be known for their religion without putting forth any work, they lack in their growth for no work means no growth. For I know that there is so much more to come but very few listen, for without a spiritual enlightenment the body shall be empty for only spiritual growth will fulfill thy soul. The body of man is weak, it is the soul that strengthens it. Man is quick to call it all mental illness without realizing that without spiritual guidance then there is no growth and without either of these man walks aimlessly without reason or purpose . They say man has both good and evil within. I do not see that nor was it ever meant to be this way. I see man who does right has a spiritual enlightenment and man who choose to do wrong has no spiritual guidance. For my child read and understand, without guidance and growth then we all are lost and without the right following of belief that was meant to be in your heart then you too will be lost. for those who never open their eyes will wander endlessly, never knowing the truth. I have seen more, we are to rejoice when our spiritual growth is being fulfilled, but yet many will never understand what true spiritual growth is. They will see no rejoicing for they are still lost. For you have seen what I speak. They have nothing of faith for faith is of its own heart. It comes with spiritual growth.

Many follow a belief but have no spiritual growth because they have no faith. For faith is not of the mind but of the heart. For if you question your belief then you have little to no faith in whatever it is that you follow. Many claim to have faith, but when something happens they question their god or goddess. If they question their god or goddess it shows that they have little to no faith in whom they worship and when their questions are not answered to their liking they turn against their god(s) and refuse his or her guidance because they refuse to accept to truth. For man knows little which is why they consult the gods and goddesses for spiritual guidance for their growth. For man does not realize that many of the gods and goddesses work together, no one god or goddess can answer all the questions man has. If you ask a question and if the answer is either not what you hoped for or unknown and you accept it with love and faith, smile and say thank you for they answered to the best of their ability or the answer will come to you when you are ready. For what the gods have taught you through growth clears the fog from your eyes and open them and with this your heart has been open as well, For you realize they see beyond what man can see. for man see things in a simple and limited way, where the Gods see things in a different diverse prospective. . For when death nears many pray to the one they worship for life against death but yet they do not understand that the body may die but their soul which made them who they were still lives, without fear and pain. They do not realize that the prayers have been answered but not as man see it but yet as the Gods or Goddess see it. To the gods, eternal life is for the spirit. Again many say the good die young but they do not see that the young that die have reached the fulfillment they were excepted upon this earth and they are being rewarded with life in a more beautiful realm for we all in live in spiritual realms and the Gods and Goddess watch over them. For this is the true meaning, if all had true faith within their soul and heart, they could sit and talk with others of different religions and beliefs and talk in peace with the understanding. The Gods and Goddess work together as man should do for it is what is in your heart that counts. For as I speak a tear runs down my face. For I weep for the lost and for those who will never understand. For there is many that will refuse to accept these words. for that is when the soul is for the body, not the body for the soul. For I hope you understand the differeance, of the body for the soul and soul for the body. Many think it is the same but yet it is not, for the soul supports the body to where the body is to support the soul for the soul support the body so it can have life. For within them , their soul is only there for the body instead the body for the soul. When thy body is for the soul than there shall be growth, but when when soul is just for the body there is no growth and it starves for guidance and man has no thoughts but only for himself even in his own relationships. If there is no spiritual growth within the relationship then one or both the will wander looking for happiness, which they feel is someone else’s without knowing their soul is alone and hungry for its own growth when it has none. But yet if you live life with your body supporting the soul you are giving the soul its nourishment.

For as in relationships he may crave the phyical body of the other and enjoy earthy things together, with his beloved but if their souls are empty and in time the earthy connection will lose it charm and then they look for the same earthy connection which is now gone. They have nothing more of earthy things to enjoy for earthy thing are here only for a short time whereas the spiritual is here forever. When man bases love for the world it will fail and fade to the grave but if they base their love on their spiritualty it will never die.When you have spiritual growth together and grow together the bond becomes unbroken with the faith of a tree for a tree has more faith and spiritual growth than most men for they reach upwards, they never grow down, for they have a strong base, for they came from the darkness and slowly grew into the light and as they grew, they become stronger as will man that grows from spiritual enlightenment. For as you and your beloved enjoy the beauties of the earth but yet live in harmony with the spiritual. Instead of feeling the ware and tears of the flesh with age you grow spiritually and within it there is a greater love and deeper connection to always grow stronger. Nothing never grows old and everything is always renewed. And with this a deeper spiritual growth births a deeper love for your connection has grown before you laid eyes on one another. You both searched to fullfill the emptyness for like the roots of the trees you suffered pain and loneliness in the darkness until you found the light within each other and your belief and gods. You came together as one. And those with no faith will alway grow strong of muscle strength but never in spiritual strength. Muscle people think that strenght is physical never understand that strength comes from within the heart and soul. With the heart and soul enlightened comes guidance which has spiritual growth within.

For all that you have seen today and all that was revealed shall be kept and studied so that not one word or meaning shall be lost. For these words are a spiritual growth for you and must not be forgotten and only will be uttered once. For you are looked upon as the teacher. Your heart is in the right place and your following of the gods and goddesses is strong of faith and stands without question. Always remember that all the gods play a part in this great world and to reject one may inhibit your growth. For yes some of those are jealous of another but they all play a part in your world and your growth, good, bad or indifferent. You can learn from them all and none will come to you unless they have knowledge for your growth. Remember when you were at school and you had teachers you totally disliked but yet they taught you what you needed to know with their teachings you have grown with new knowledge. Your heart and faith has been touched by these words this I know. You are worthy of the rewrite for that is the reason you was chosen to do so , you have done great justice to writing of the past for now i bid you a good day, for the night may reveal more to come.

So how does a black woman find her ancestry while practicing Theistic Satanism and the Serpent Belief?

It is funny how something that seems totally unrelated bleeds into something else. I must admit that when it came to my childhood I was a starving child, not for food, I can tell you I definitely had my share of food, but for self discovery and knowledge. I was very curious as a child born in the mid 80’s and growing up in the 90’s, always wanting to learn things, how things were and why things were the way they were. Do not get my wrong, I had my share of mindless child indulges such as my video games, barbie dolls and Disney movies, but I felt something that I wonder was normal for children. Was there something else out there? This thirst would eventually lead me to my discovery of Theistic Satanism, however this was not the only thirst that kept me awake at night while everyone else slept. I also wanted to know, who was I? From where or what did I come from? What was in my blood? And does it really affect me now? Does it really matter? I hated how everyone seemed to be contented with just living through the motions, yet even as a kid I questioned things that no one else seemed to care to think about.

I questioned my mother on what came before my ginny gan and granddaddy and she would respond that she only knew a few generations back and those who could remember back to the slavery days were long gone. However she did tell me that we had Aztec in the blood, that there was native american and Asian, Italian and Irish in the blood. She had no idea concerning our African Heritage or where our African Ancestors came from. I asked my father the same question but he knew nothing concerning our ancestors, only that we came from Africa. I began to accept these answers that my parents told me but something deep inside wasn’t satisfied with them. I wanted to know more and if they were truly the truth. If there was anything my parents taught me through countless negative experiences its to trust but verify.

Fast forward to my College days, I grew a deep and profound love for all things ancient. I decided to major in Humanities and with this major I studied Ancient Greece and Rome. Later on I went on to study the Mayas and the Aztecs, the Middle East and the cultures of the Orient and Africa. You must understand that I am not one of these who is happy just learning one culture. Oh no, I have to learn and know many and all as extensive as I possibly can. It became almost an obsession to me which only fueled my desire to know where I have come from. Before I knew it I had many books on the subject of these ancient cultures. The movies I watched and the video-games that I had played one way or another had something to do with the ancient past. The dreams I had I often drew or painted from memory of ancient ruins and places that somehow I knew subconsciously, but to tell you in this wakeful realm I could not. They may have been long gone for many but for me the ancient past was as alive as the air that I breathed, and with them, the traditions, religions and spiritualness kept at me like puppies insisting on being nurtured and petted. As one would imagine this too has made me restless. Has anyone ever felt such a thing, being helpless only because you did not know but deep inside you knew but could not understand the language that was lost. Little did I realize I was being called and beckoned by my gods & ancestors, but because I did not know how to answer them or even how to go by it. I was being driven mad under my calm exterior. Everyone else looked at me cool, calm and collected, but beneath the facade an ocean during a turbulent storm steadily brewed.

My original intentions was to be an ancient culture anthropologist. Sadly to do this I would have to continue my schooling until I gotten at least a masters degree. My love of the ancient was huge but the longer I was in College the more I found myself disliking it. But me being me I continued to trek on through, thinking that everything would be ok and that I would figure things out later. Little did I realize my world and mindset was changing and with this I had found that the teachings faulty to say the least. It did not help that the way the ancients revealed themselves to me in ways that College was not even touching. How do you explain to your professor that the ancients show you things which cannot be proven by science? Or even better and sure to cause a pissing match, how do you tell your professor that what was scientifically proven to be right is wrong ? Man has done wonders with technology and research, but man is a slave to this man made notion such as Science. Then what really threw a monkey wrench into my dilemma one night was my High Priest and I was talking and then suddenly a voice other than his spoke We believe once something is set in stone than it must be right and the gods themselves could show up and tell us differently until they are blue in the face and we would still argue with them in our arrogance and over inflated egos. So again I found myself at a crossroads, I felt shattered and my world all fallen apart. I just spent the last five years of my existence learning things that turned out to be hallowed out truths or just plain lies. How does one bounce back from this cataclysm?

I struggled with this mind you and I gotten to the point where I just put it all away in the back of my mind as life, work, bills, obligations and mundane activities demanded attention. That was until many moons later I stumble across the Service known as AncestryDNA. And lucky me they had a sale! The first chance I could I purchased a kit and when it arrived I gave my DNA sample and sent it off to the lab. I cannot begin to tell you just how both fearful and excited I was and at the same time how impatient I was when it came to the wait. They told me that it would take around six weeks to fully analyze the data before I could know my results. Like really? From a small sample of saliva? I’m glad I did not have to fill the tube in fear of having to waiting longer than six weeks! The anticipation was killing me and it seemed like everyday that I was checking the status of my results, only to be disappointing that they were not ready yet. Finally after awhile again I put it in the back of my mind and just forgotten after I think about 3 weeks. Then one day after browsing my phone and cooking dinner I get a notification that my results were ready…

I can tell you my heart skipped a few beats and then shot through the roof and what was revealed to me opened so many doors. African, European, Middle Eastern, American and even little Oriental doors so to speak. I have found cultures that my intuition was right about and I have found cultures that I did not even know existed! I did not stop at AncestryDNA, I also brought my results to other places such as myheritage, 23&me, GEDMATCH and Mytrueancestry. Why? Well I heard from others that also done the same that other services find different things and that some were upset because their findings were either close or did not 100% agree with one another. From my experience I take it all in for many things were either repeatedly found or went even deeper with something else uncovered. Furthermore It does not matter to me whether I have 50% of one thing and only 1% of another. If its found it is found, I love how double standard our society is, to be qualified as Native American you have to be a certain percentage to even have benefits but if you have just a drop of African blood, guess what? You are African! To deny one ancestry just because you have but a drop is disrespectful not only to them but to yourself! So what exactly am I made of? That’s future blogs down the road. In the future I will begin blogging on each culture that I have found and will show how the Serpent belief lived and breathed through the world.

So at last I have finally found myself and know where I have come from. And to my discovery after doing research I have found that many of my ancestral cultures practiced the Ancient Serpent Belief! In summation to all this, one thing truly leads to another. My belief lead me to its precursor which then lead me to my ancestors. If I could give anyone advice no matter what belief they follow it would be to find your ancestors for with them lies your truth. They are here with you and within you, whispering and guiding you way as well as the gods. They love you and want what is best for you. Find them and your life will thank you for it.

When two races come together in one descendant…..

Hello, my name is Tiziri. And My blood is around 80% African and 17% European and the rest is of the Middle Eastern, Orient and or Native American. (At least according to AncestryDNA & MyheritageDNA lol) I mention this Because I see that there is a great need for this knowledge and confession. You see, growing up I like many others have felt inferior, but not because of being taught that I was, (which in some situations I was) but because I was different. You see, I grew up spending the most of my childhood in neighborhoods and private schools surrounded mostly by whites. It wasn’t until 6th grade when I was exposed to kids of my color which let me tell you, that was another interesting situation there but I’ll get to that in a bit. I never really felt I belonged anywhere, yes my white friends, their parents and most of the teachers treated me as one of their own. But it’s hard sometimes being a kid and noticing the difference and wondering why you are different. Yes, as a child one does notice differences. Then when I went to public school in the 6th grade one would think that my not belonging would be done, well no, in fact I went from one problem to the opposite. Yeah I was the same color as these kids, but by now  I was brought up with manners, dignity, pride, all these things that these other kids didn’t seem to either have or just didn’t care about. My tone of voice was different, the way I kept myself, my walk, my talk, everything about me was the complete opposite of everyone else and boy did they ever remind me of it either by taunting or ostracizing.

You know it’s bad that I was informed by a white girl that even my face looked different, she said I looked friendly, unlike many of the other black girls in the school. I would imagine she was probably talking about my spiritual aura but at the time neither one of us knew. Anyway, I was as many would say now “white washed” or “Uncle Tom” and people are bullied to believe that as either of these things you should be ashamed and that you are supposedly a traitor to your own race. That you are nothing but a token to the whites and that you do not know your roots. Thinking about this I gotta say, now wait a minute, how many of these blacks saying this know exactly where their ancestors came from? I know where from Africa exactly mine came from. My ancestors of African descent come from Nigeria, Ghana, Benin/Togo, Senegal, Cameroon/Congo, Mali, Kenya, Egypt to name a few places. How in the world could they say this and I guarantee about 90% of them do not even know where their ancestors hail from. These blacks got everything so twisted now they even got some whites people saying that they are racist and ashamed of being white! I’m like, what the hell?! How could you live with this? All this shame, like it was your choice to be born a certain color, race or ethnicity?

Then on top of all this shame we have violence, hate, blacks attacking whites, whites attacking blacks, riots whenever a black person gets shot, but never when a white person does. We have so much going on now that looking at it from the outside it is madness!  I do not mean to be a downer on things but people, we got to get our affairs together. We gotta start accepting each other and ourselves as we are, how can we even love each other if we cannot even honor and respect ourselves?  We got a lot of anger, frustration that needs to get sort out. We got a lot of pain and wounds that need to be put to rest and healed. Which is why now today as an adult with all the racism and turmoil between the races I got something to say. Some  of you may not like this but It has to be said. Someone has to do it, I Volunteer myself as tribute. This is not just for me but for those who are ashamed. Those who are ashamed of being white and those who are ashamed of have a percentage of white or something else in their DNA. Well here it is, I AM PROUD! Yes I said it. I am proud of what I am and I am proud of what my DNA comprises of. I fear nothing and I am NOT ashamed. I accept everything and I accept it all. I accept my African Ancestry and I accept My European Ancestry! I do not discriminate nor will I blacken my ancestors names by rejection.

People, we gotta start loving and accepting each other. We gotta start loving and accepting our own selves. We got to learn to say YES I have European and African Ancestry and I’m ok with that! It’s ok to be mixed race, it is you. It’s ok! Accept it!! Yes, our African ancestors went through some hell, yes they were done wrong and yes there was trauma, even today you can still feel the trauma. But people, if you look at the history, trauma nor slavery was exclusively an African slight. Just about everyone at one time or another suffered slavery or had something horrific happen to them. History tells us this, from the transatlantic slavery, the Holocaust, Irish potato famine, white slavery by the Muslim Oppressors, all the wars humanity has had, on and on. Everyone has had wrong done upon them. Many of you may not believe this, but I feel that all things happen for a reason, yes that even means things that in our perception should never happen, like slavery. Tell me, if slavery never happened where would we be now? Would we even exist? Would we exist as we are now or in a different way? Would our cultures, beliefs and spirituality exist beyond the shores of Africa had our ancestors not endured what they endured? Would we share in others cultures, beliefs and spirituality had our ancestors never came?

Think about that, would we have what we have now had slavery never happened? I’m talking about both bad and good things, you cannot have one without the other, there must always be balance in everything. Yes we as a people had lost many things because of slavery, however we as modern day people have the opportunity to reclaim what we have lost. We can get many of our gifts back, there is many sources, books, internet, family, DNA agencies, travel, we have so many ways to relearn what our ancestors knew it’s pitiful that all we as a people do is fight with the whites and each other over something that happened long ago. I believe enough is enough. I get so tired, tired of people even ugly with each other. I’ve had enough and starting today this is what I will do about it. I’m going to proudly wear my African clothes, I’m going to wear the tartan of my great granddaddy Campbell and speaking of me wearing a tartan, I find this whole “cultural appropriation” nonsense! I have Irish/Scottish/welsh And Scandinavian in my blood! Hell my last name is German! Are you saying I cannot wear a drindl or  my Dress and Apron with brooches becuase my skin is black! Shame! I will not blacken my ancestors names and I’m going to wear the clothes of my ancestors. I’m going to research and learn the history of my ancestors and I’m going to walk with them, learn from them and commune with them everyday! You stand on the shoulders of your ancestors, that is why you can see so far. That is an African belief and not just African, but many others had that belief once too. I will either do it alone or others can join me in reclaiming our past. The choice is up to you. It is time that we face our own darkness to recover the gems of our birth rite, everyone has the right.